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Maybe I'm Selfish ?

so as everybody may knows.. me & my boyfriend broke up in September... we were broken up for about a good month.. && during that time i was talking to a guy.. he claimed we were together even though he never asked me out.. i liked him a lot but deep down inside i knew i was still in love with my ex boyfriend.. i let that get in the way of me and this guy getting closer.. i told him i didn't want to be in a relationship because i had recently started talking to my ex & i KNEW we weren't over .. I'm NOT a player or anything close to that .. but i felt stuck.. my ex told me he wanted to be together again & i couldn't find it in myself to say no .. even though i had this other guy that i LIKEd.. i still LOVED him.. so here were these two great guys both wanting to be with me.. and i was caught in the middle.. i HAD to choose.. i think we all know who i chose, my ex.. who is now my boyfriend at the time.. && whom i LOVE .. but anyways.. the guy i was talking to started talking to another girl && was posting stuff on myspace & facebook and i DID NOT like it AT ALL .. i knew i still liked him but i didn't want to so i deleted him off facebook and myspace.. he texted me asking what was up & i told him .. eventually i added him again but then he got serious with this new girl && started actin hella rude toward me so i deleted him again .. i even deleted all the text messages from him in my phone along with his number .. every now and then i come across his page & i ALWAYS see something about his new girl .. it makes me SO MAD . like , i don't want to be with him but i don't like seeing him with another girl .. i don't understand . UGH like whyyyyy do i feel like that ?? i have this amazing boyfriend who i love && wanna marry but I'm still worried about some other dude ?? wtf is wrong w/ me ?? when i sit back and think about it , it makes me feel selfish ! chz who am i to get mad at him for being with another girl when i basically left him for my ex who he helped me get over when we first broke up && he was there for me when i was going through it .. man idk .. i feel like shit every time i think about it .. i guess we'll see what happenss .. but in the mean time maybe i should just forget about him.. LITERALLY . smhhh .. where's my baby ???